IRC Driven

[00:18:13] xEmperorEmber Hello.

[00:19:13] xEmperorEmber Hi CoolKevin.

[00:19:22] xEmperorEmber 10 Chat windows open, you're the winner.

[00:19:29] xEmperorEmber Sent Hello to each.

[00:19:37] xEmperorEmber lol

[00:19:44] xEmperorEmber A/S/L

[00:19:55] xEmperorEmber (yeah, I just did that... lmfao)

[00:20:01] xEmperorEmber Oh...

[00:20:16] xEmperorEmber Well, this just got awkward.

[00:20:23] xEmperorEmber Age/Sex/Location

[00:20:30] xEmperorEmber I pretty sure I can deduce the sex part.

[00:20:36] xEmperorEmber HAHAHA

[00:20:39] xEmperorEmber Nice.

[00:20:54] xEmperorEmber Alright, fair enough.

[00:21:25] xEmperorEmber I'm going to pause this conversation and say... "no."

[00:21:31] xEmperorEmber "No, that does not help."

[00:21:34] xEmperorEmber lol

[00:21:47] xEmperorEmber But, if that's your kink, Kevin...

[00:21:49] xEmperorEmber I mean...

[00:22:01] xEmperorEmber I'm sure there is someone on MIRC to oblige.

[00:22:09] xEmperorEmber Grrl.

[00:22:25] xEmperorEmber I am literally here to not explode.

[00:22:36] xEmperorEmber So brace yourself, that in mind.

[00:22:55] xEmperorEmber Like... we're talking straight trauma dump.

[00:23:15] xEmperorEmber That's exactly the right response, lol.

[00:23:21] xEmperorEmber I need someone chill AF.

[00:24:09] xEmperorEmber hahaha... that still works. Wow.

[00:25:07] xEmperorEmber So... wife got leukemia. Wife cheated from hospital bed 9 months in. Wife accused me of cheating (never did). Wife hits me and daughter. Leave wife. Now I am dating a 20 year old college student on a track scholarship.

[00:25:11] xEmperorEmber I am 38.

[00:25:19] xEmperorEmber My life, is a mess.

[00:26:04] xEmperorEmber Daughter gets sent to live with someone out of state. Daughter says "mom says if I talk to you, she takes all my shit away."

[00:26:18] xEmperorEmber Now... no wife, no daughter. Just 20 year old track athlete.

[00:26:32] xEmperorEmber @owenambro - Thanks, noted.

[00:26:41] xEmperorEmber She is... absurdly hot.

[00:26:54] xEmperorEmber Like.. fuck...

[00:27:07] xEmperorEmber Okay, I left the busy city I live in, and rented a place 5 minutes from her campus.

[00:27:12] xEmperorEmber Half her clothes are here.

[00:27:21] xEmperorEmber Toothbrush, the works.

[00:27:51] xEmperorEmber She is 120, 5'4, solid muscle. Six pack. Everything my ex could never be.

[00:28:14] xEmperorEmber But... I just have this whole... "I'm am taking advantage of her." thing happening.

[00:28:56] xEmperorEmber She wants to party. 22nd, that's a halloween party. Had her costumes (yes, multiple: sexy nurse, or french maid) delivered to my PO BOX.

[00:29:31] xEmperorEmber I just applied for a job in this shit hole city that pays $60k, and they are on my dick. 1st interview and it is time to meet the team and take a tour next week.

[00:29:51] xEmperorEmber I DO COME TO IRC TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM.

[00:30:01] xEmperorEmber Surprise ruined?

[00:30:13] xEmperorEmber Thank you Owen.

[00:30:34] xEmperorEmber Everything feels pointless.

[00:30:51] xEmperorEmber I'm pushing on a taught 20 year old with the tightest damn.. uh hummm.. I've ever felt.

[00:30:55] xEmperorEmber And it means nothing.

[00:31:08] xEmperorEmber My life is shit.

[00:31:35] xEmperorEmber Well, I did have contact, through discord, but she broke it off because she got threatened by mom.

[00:31:43] xEmperorEmber LMFAO@OWEN

[00:31:54] xEmperorEmber Or, bowling?

[00:32:02] xEmperorEmber She is 16.

[00:32:26] xEmperorEmber Props to Ahsoka.

[00:32:33] xEmperorEmber No, 16.

[00:32:40] xEmperorEmber lol

[00:32:50] xEmperorEmber Yeah, real shit, homie.

[00:33:08] xEmperorEmber Man, I'd like to think so, but IDK, Mom is scary.

[00:33:47] xEmperorEmber I got shit. No divorce. Common Law. If we did a divorce, I would take the house defacto, but I want ex to have it. She is recovering from Leukemia and a brain aneurysm that made her.. ummmm... violent.

[00:34:09] xEmperorEmber So, I COULD divorce, or I could just pretend like we were never married.

[00:34:16] xEmperorEmber I am opting for the latter for her benefit.

[00:34:57] xEmperorEmber You don't know the half of it. FR.

[00:35:44] xEmperorEmber Common law is where you live with someone, share bills, and so by law, your married.

[00:35:56] xEmperorEmber But, if you separate, and no one makes a fuss... well, then that's okay, too.

[00:36:06] xEmperorEmber Oh, I'm in the states.

[00:36:17] xEmperorEmber Texas, specifically. Common law is a thing.

[00:37:07] xEmperorEmber No, we didn't. She was married before and the guy raped and beat her, held her against her will, etc. Kinda turned her off to the idea of marriage? IDK...

[00:37:22] xEmperorEmber I asked several times, especially after the leukemia. I offered to put her on my insurance.

[00:37:31] xEmperorEmber But she still declined.

[00:37:41] xEmperorEmber Met her in 6th grade, btw.

[00:37:44] xEmperorEmber lol

[00:38:04] xEmperorEmber She is a recovering heroin addict. She was 10 years clean, till the surgeries.

[00:38:16] xEmperorEmber Yeah, 11... 12.

[00:38:20] xEmperorEmber I was 11, she was 12.

[00:39:04] xEmperorEmber We liked each other, started dating fr 10th grade. She was my first (I was her.... 3rd?) and then I dumped her because she kept sucking cock for weed.

[00:39:47] xEmperorEmber Fast forward 5 years later, she's a strung out heroin addict asking for help. I dump my super stable librarian girlfriend who is ridiculously hot that I've been dating for nearly 7 years, and move back to her. Give her a house, etc.

[00:40:02] xEmperorEmber OWEN...

[00:40:30] xEmperorEmber Yes... Things I know now. But I was in DISNEY love, okay?

[00:41:22] xEmperorEmber Anyway... She gets sick. She starts talking to her ex because I'm not there enough at her hospital bed. YK, too busy running the household, taking care of the kid, cooking, cleaning, shopping, and researching cancer.

[00:41:50] xEmperorEmber Then her doctors told me because our house was old, we should remodel to renovate for any mold. Well, I did that with my daughter. we stripped that house to the fucking timbers.

[00:41:59] xEmperorEmber And rebuilt it back up from scratch.

[00:42:08] xEmperorEmber And the whole time... she was fucking chatting her ex.

[00:42:36] xEmperorEmber Ultimate.

[00:42:51] xEmperorEmber Well, she had never hit me before.

[00:43:13] xEmperorEmber But fathers day, before the cancer was diagnosed, she beat the shit out of me because I was crying about my dad dying a month before.

[00:43:20] xEmperorEmber She laughed in my face and called me a little bitch.

[00:43:36] xEmperorEmber Never had physical violence in our relationship before that. I knew something was wrong.

[00:44:15] xEmperorEmber Turns out it was her drinking too much (subbing the heroin) and having an aneurysm, plus the leukemia stopped her from clotting, so when she drank (heavily) she just bled on her brain.

[00:44:38] xEmperorEmber I stayed because... kid, and knowing her for so long.

[00:45:03] xEmperorEmber To be honest, when she beat me bloody in June, I was leaving. I got a storage unit, another bank account, I was making that slow exit.

[00:45:05] xEmperorEmber NOW.

[00:45:17] xEmperorEmber Believe it or not, she was diagnosed on my fucking birthday.

[00:46:03] xEmperorEmber Which was the week that I was going to leave. Her and I had a few drinks. And she started to collapse and couldn't see. Took her to Urgent Care. They pulled her blood, said she needed a transfusion but wouldn't say why. She was in the hospital that night.

[00:46:11] xEmperorEmber m5b sub variant.

[00:46:29] xEmperorEmber LOL@CoolKevin

[00:46:36] xEmperorEmber Shit... this feels so good.

[00:46:41] xEmperorEmber To be able to vent.

[00:46:54] xEmperorEmber Wait, does that mean Owen bailed?

[00:47:00] xEmperorEmber That makes me sad.

[00:47:10] xEmperorEmber Anyway, this is all 100% true.

[00:47:16] xEmperorEmber It's fucking awful.

[00:47:32] xEmperorEmber So... anyway, 6 months on. This 20 year old is amazingly hot.

[00:47:47] xEmperorEmber I have moved away from my old city, and I commute 4 hours round trip daily for my old job.

[00:48:06] xEmperorEmber I just interviewed today for a new position 2 minutes from my new apartment, and 5 minutes from her campus.

[00:48:23] xEmperorEmber Before the apartment, I was sleeping in a tent in a state park.

[00:48:29] xEmperorEmber I met this girl on reddit.

[00:48:54] xEmperorEmber Her parents own 3 houses. I don't know what the first one is worth, but the last to are north of 5 million combined.

[00:49:26] xEmperorEmber She drafted this fake ass letter saying she got a scholarship to this college, and passed it on to her parents, but she only had the money to cover one semester.

[00:49:40] xEmperorEmber I think she is using me to cover the second semester. IDK if this is love, gentlemen.

[00:49:48] xEmperorEmber In fact... she may be cheating on me regularly.

[00:49:55] xEmperorEmber I have no real way of knowing.

[00:50:08] xEmperorEmber BUT... she has given me around $3,000 to get on my feet.

[00:50:27] xEmperorEmber So... does it matter if she is cheating if I get that money and she still hands me her body, and we have a nice time together?

[00:50:33] xEmperorEmber Am I asking for too much>

[00:50:36] xEmperorEmber ?

[00:50:45] xEmperorEmber Because all she had was $3k.

[00:50:51] xEmperorEmber School is $8k per semester.

[00:51:20] xEmperorEmber I had NOTHING, but she knew I could land a job making bank, and she knew I could pull my retirement fund from my current job valuated around $20k, which I am working on doing.

[00:51:29] xEmperorEmber brb. One second. HAVE TO PEE.

[00:54:32] xEmperorEmber Her parents think she was awarded a scholarship. They are SUPER strict. She made a hoax saying that this college would pay for everything just so she could get out of their house and live in a dorm.

[00:54:43] xEmperorEmber To experience some freedom. They are very controlling.

[00:54:51] xEmperorEmber NONE of this is bullshit.

[00:54:56] xEmperorEmber I swear. ONG.

[00:55:17] xEmperorEmber On God.

[00:55:24] xEmperorEmber Thanks Owen.

[00:55:39] xEmperorEmber Dude, yeah, but think about it... You live in a 2 million dollar house.

[00:55:46] xEmperorEmber When you gonna give that up>

[00:55:47] xEmperorEmber ?

[00:55:50] xEmperorEmber And a nice car?

[00:56:07] xEmperorEmber Yeah, she isn't going to break with that.

[00:56:14] xEmperorEmber Are you guys ready for the green log?

[00:56:19] xEmperorEmber (back to the future 3 reference)

[00:56:24] xEmperorEmber ...or was it a red log

[00:56:25] xEmperorEmber ?

[00:56:30] xEmperorEmber THE FINAL LOG.

[00:56:50] xEmperorEmber JESUS KEVIN

[00:56:52] xEmperorEmber Neither has she.

[00:56:58] xEmperorEmber I am making her watch them all.

[00:57:00] xEmperorEmber Kevin is 24.

[00:57:18] xEmperorEmber YES OWEN.

[00:57:20] xEmperorEmber Thank you.

[00:57:28] xEmperorEmber So she is black. Nigerian Black.

[00:57:33] xEmperorEmber I am white.

[00:57:36] xEmperorEmber Her parents are racist.

[00:58:02] xEmperorEmber This relationship can never go anywhere. She has literally cried asking me to cum in her to have a kid, and to marry her.

[00:58:18] xEmperorEmber OMG...If I were less modest, I would share a picture.

[00:58:34] xEmperorEmber She literally is the most amazing woman I have ever had the honor of.. uh hummm.

[00:58:47] xEmperorEmber Like, half the time I'm just thinking it's not real.

[00:58:54] xEmperorEmber Anyway, beyond that.

[00:59:08] xEmperorEmber Well, because she's on that parent dollar.

[00:59:34] xEmperorEmber And she is afraid if they find out that she is dating a man 18 years older that is WHITE she will be cut off, and kicked out of the family.

[00:59:37] xEmperorEmber TBH, she probably would be.

[01:00:25] xEmperorEmber So, I think I fucked up tonight. Shit, I think I have fucked up a lot. The other day, she said she shot pool with a guy and got his snap.

[01:00:58] xEmperorEmber And was going to ask him to shoot pool again. I freaked out. Called it cheating. Asked if she'd like it if I went and did shit one on one with someone of the opposite sex.

[01:01:14] xEmperorEmber She said no, and then she was all like "I Am just making friends."

[01:01:21] xEmperorEmber IDK, maybe it's a generational thing?

[01:01:36] xEmperorEmber To me... you DM someone and talk about meeting one on one that's a date.

[01:01:43] xEmperorEmber You think so Owen?

[01:01:59] xEmperorEmber Can I ask how old you are?

[01:02:00] xEmperorEmber Owne?

[01:02:02] xEmperorEmber Owen?

[01:02:47] xEmperorEmber Not that any answer invalidates your opinions and suggestions, but like Orwell... some are more valid than others.

[01:02:50] xEmperorEmber #animalfarm

[01:03:38] xEmperorEmber Also, her and I have been exclusive for about 4 months.

[01:03:53] xEmperorEmber Alright. You are 20. I am 38.

[01:03:55] xEmperorEmber I fucked up.

[01:04:01] xEmperorEmber Hands down.

[01:04:17] xEmperorEmber So Owen, you would be cool with your lady going out with another guy?

[01:04:22] xEmperorEmber One on one, to shoot pool?

[01:04:30] xEmperorEmber In the dorms common area?

[01:04:47] xEmperorEmber I already did apologize, and she did understand.

[01:05:03] xEmperorEmber LIKE... I don't fucking get why she keeps giving me chances.

[01:05:17] xEmperorEmber Owen, speak.

[01:05:20] xEmperorEmber I am listening.

[01:05:28] xEmperorEmber Alright, I need to go with it, right?

[01:05:36] xEmperorEmber Let her stay out till 2 AM and not sweat it.

[01:05:50] xEmperorEmber I think you guys are right.

[01:06:03] xEmperorEmber Okay... I WAS CHILL AF.... guys, I was.

[01:06:10] xEmperorEmber Then something happened like 3 weeks ago.

[01:06:17] xEmperorEmber May I?

[01:06:19] xEmperorEmber Thanks...

[01:06:41] xEmperorEmber So... before the apartment, I have her in this scuzzy hotel, pushing on her. She likes to be treated like a slut, IDK how to do that and be comfortable.

[01:06:52] xEmperorEmber So we start looking through her phone at guys she's sexted on reddit.

[01:06:58] xEmperorEmber (BTW, I AM HER SECOND).

[01:07:34] xEmperorEmber And I have her watch this video over and over of a guy finishing on his chest because it's someone she used to chat. I am just trying to cathc the "slut vibe" so I can satisfy her.

[01:07:39] xEmperorEmber Anyway... SHE SAYS...

[01:07:52] xEmperorEmber "We can call him on discord right now and have him watch.

[01:07:54] xEmperorEmber "

[01:08:06] xEmperorEmber I'm like.. "UHHHHH... Are there rammifactions? how close were you guys?

[01:08:09] xEmperorEmber "

[01:08:26] xEmperorEmber And before she answers, she is masturbating in front of this guy.

[01:08:36] xEmperorEmber Then before I know it, I'm taking her in front of him.

[01:08:48] xEmperorEmber BECAUSE SHE WANTS TO BE TREATED LIKE A SLUT.

[01:08:56] xEmperorEmber So... lol

[01:09:02] xEmperorEmber That's what happened.

[01:09:10] xEmperorEmber I fake orgasm.

[01:09:13] xEmperorEmber And leave.

[01:09:18] xEmperorEmber And she is on the bed, him and her.

[01:09:27] xEmperorEmber So she has to finish for him. She's a squirter.

[01:09:30] xEmperorEmber So...

[01:09:31] xEmperorEmber Fuck.

[01:09:45] xEmperorEmber Her and I are making eye contact the whole time, and I know that she knows that she can't get there.

[01:10:12] xEmperorEmber That she isn't comfortable. She only ever showed this guy her tits. She hates the idea of people seeing her.... uhummm on camera over the internet.

[01:10:32] xEmperorEmber So... I'm about to start laughing outloud and ruin everything because I can read her face.

[01:10:55] xEmperorEmber So I leave to the hotel bathroom. When I come back, she's pissing on everything.

[01:11:06] xEmperorEmber This guy thinks it's legit.

[01:11:08] xEmperorEmber We end the call.

[01:11:17] xEmperorEmber She says "I feel bad. I didn't like t hat."

[01:11:27] xEmperorEmber I'm like... "Why did you do it?"

[01:11:43] xEmperorEmber "Because I thought you wanted it, you were putting the video in my face, I thought you wanted it."

[01:12:00] xEmperorEmber I'm like..."I just wanted to find a way to treat you like a slut that I felt i could roll with."

[01:12:15] xEmperorEmber "that meant having you review other guys you fucked around with while I was in you."

[01:12:24] xEmperorEmber She's like..."FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKK."

[01:12:27] xEmperorEmber I'm like....

[01:12:35] xEmperorEmber "FUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKK."

[01:12:43] xEmperorEmber we realize neither one of us wanted that.

[01:12:48] xEmperorEmber But... TOO LATE>

[01:12:51] xEmperorEmber SINCE THEN

[01:12:56] xEmperorEmber I HAVE BEEN INSECURE.

[01:13:14] xEmperorEmber Before that, IDGAF what she did at college in her dorms.

[01:14:39] xEmperorEmber So, yeah, now I am all self conscious.

[01:14:43] xEmperorEmber TO ADD TO IT ALL

[01:14:56] xEmperorEmber All the stress over the past year has my blood pressure at 190/120.

[01:15:00] xEmperorEmber That's stroke levele.

[01:15:10] xEmperorEmber I'm going to die fucking her, I swear to god.

[01:15:37] xEmperorEmber I'm starting to wonder after that last sentence if english IS Kevin's first language.

[01:15:50] xEmperorEmber It's okay, bro. You can come out of the multilingual closet. I got you.

[01:19:04] xEmperorEmber I'm back.. sorry, she texted.

[01:19:24] xEmperorEmber We're talking about charcuterie boards.

[01:19:26] xEmperorEmber FML.

[01:19:43] xEmperorEmber I don't have any, Kevin.

[01:19:48] xEmperorEmber She's tried to find them.

[01:19:57] xEmperorEmber She's threatened my butthole.

[01:20:03] xEmperorEmber I don't think I have one.

[01:20:04] xEmperorEmber YES.

[01:20:09] xEmperorEmber SERVING HER IS ONE.

[01:20:12] xEmperorEmber Good call.

[01:20:18] xEmperorEmber I fucking worship that body.

[01:20:25] xEmperorEmber And her, as a person.

[01:20:30] xEmperorEmber Well, she is a sub, too.

[01:20:35] xEmperorEmber That's the problem.

[01:20:40] xEmperorEmber Double sub...

[01:20:53] xEmperorEmber Insight, Sushi?

[01:22:55] xEmperorEmber How do I play it?

[01:22:58] xEmperorEmber I've tried.

[01:23:22] xEmperorEmber It's hard. Like the only thing that has worked is watching he watch videos of other guys that they've sent to her.

[01:23:30] xEmperorEmber ...did that make sense?

[01:23:51] xEmperorEmber Can I send images here? No, right?

[01:24:08] xEmperorEmber JFC... Sometimes she goes out with me nipples visible.

[01:24:14] xEmperorEmber She has a total nipple fetish, btw.

[01:24:25] xEmperorEmber She doesn't like watching, Kevin.

[01:24:28] xEmperorEmber ....

[01:24:32] xEmperorEmber She likes....

[01:24:37] xEmperorEmber Listening.

[01:24:45] xEmperorEmber The video does nothing.

[01:24:49] xEmperorEmber Hers, not mind.

[01:24:53] xEmperorEmber *mine

[01:24:59] xEmperorEmber Scroll, soosh.

[01:25:14] xEmperorEmber That's the fastest way.

[01:25:31] xEmperorEmber Okay. Sushi... here.

[01:26:16] xEmperorEmber I am 38, I am now dating a 20 year old. This is after leaving my wife for beating me... but she beat me because she had a brain injury, she had a brain injury because of leukemia, she also abused our daughter who now lives out of state.

[01:27:09] xEmperorEmber 20 year old is a college student. She is exploring her sexuality. I am a part of that for her. We have been together for 4 months. We had a mishap 3 weeks ago where we misunderstood each other and it resulted in her masturbating and us having sex in front of a former reddit aquantiance.

[01:27:12] xEmperorEmber Of hers.

[01:27:23] xEmperorEmber And now I am all insecure... guy had a nice cock, tbh.

[01:27:29] xEmperorEmber I mean, mine is FINE.

[01:27:57] xEmperorEmber But. this guy beat me in girth, maybe a little in length, and his shit was a bit more veiny.

[01:28:08] xEmperorEmber Nah Kevin, won't work.

[01:28:20] xEmperorEmber I take her out and pull her clothes completely off and get her under a blanket.

[01:28:27] xEmperorEmber In the movie theatre.

[01:28:50] xEmperorEmber Yeah, that's why I left.

[01:28:58] xEmperorEmber But now I can't talk to my daughter anymore.

[01:29:14] xEmperorEmber I left my wife 3 months before meeting the 20 year old.

[01:29:27] xEmperorEmber I was literally googling how to put a noose around my neck when we met.

[01:31:03] xEmperorEmber My ex went into remission as the finale of the walking dead aired. I was watching Neegan's wife have leukemia. I was flipping out I was home alone, and I literally took every pill my ex left in the cabinet.

[01:31:10] xEmperorEmber I woke up very sick.

[01:31:19] xEmperorEmber Like.. 18 hours later, covered in vomit.

[01:31:24] xEmperorEmber But I didn't die.

[01:31:35] xEmperorEmber I couldn't get out of bed for like 3 days.

[01:31:58] xEmperorEmber I ate shit close to me that I left near by, and I had a gallon of water, because.. IDFK.

[01:32:24] xEmperorEmber I made it through. I wanted ot die in that moment, but I remember the last thing my dad said.

[01:32:34] xEmperorEmber "I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF TONIGHT."

[01:32:43] xEmperorEmber And I thought of how pitiful he sounded.

[01:33:07] xEmperorEmber And I decided not to try it again, because my daughter knew that's what my dad did, and I'm going to do the same thing?

[01:33:11] xEmperorEmber Nah. No thanks.

[01:35:43] xEmperorEmber We're texting right now, finally.

[01:35:50] xEmperorEmber Can I send screen shots here?

[01:35:53] xEmperorEmber No, right?

[01:35:54] xEmperorEmber lol

[01:37:52] xEmperorEmber "Cool

[01:37:59] xEmperorEmber I'm Laying Down."

[01:38:13] xEmperorEmber "Can I ask a question?"

[01:38:19] xEmperorEmber "yeah"

[01:38:50] xEmperorEmber So you want me to give you space for a while? If you can assure me that you can not move on for a bit, and you just need space, I'll do it."

[01:39:12] xEmperorEmber (also me) "Caveat. Should I pick you up right now?"

[01:39:29] xEmperorEmber "If I could sleep with you tonight..."

[01:39:54] xEmperorEmber "It wouldn't be sexual. I just need a moment to heal."

[01:40:07] xEmperorEmber "But you should probably call me an asshole."

[01:40:19] xEmperorEmber HER "I just wanna sleep in my room today."

[01:40:24] xEmperorEmber ...

[01:40:27] xEmperorEmber ...

[01:40:28] xEmperorEmber ...

[01:40:30] xEmperorEmber ...

[01:41:04] xEmperorEmber Wait Sushi, where are you confused.

[01:41:05] xEmperorEmber ?

[01:46:10] xEmperorEmber Herald... Really?

[01:46:24] xEmperorEmber So... What, Voyager was dumb?

[01:46:33] xEmperorEmber Talking about putting private info in public channels.

[01:46:49] xEmperorEmber You smarter than Sagan?

[01:46:57] xEmperorEmber ...Ugh..

[01:46:59] xEmperorEmber Anyway.

[01:51:53] xEmperorEmber She says.. everything is okay.

[01:51:58] xEmperorEmber Fuck.

[01:52:08] xEmperorEmber It means nothing.

[01:52:17] xEmperorEmber I wish my daughter would write.

[01:55:46] xEmperorEmber ...

[01:56:50] xEmperorEmber Sushi-Chan, Fucking DM me, plz. If you're truly female, I'd welcome the insight.

[01:56:54] xEmperorEmber Owen, thanks.

[01:57:02] xEmperorEmber Kevind, much appreciated.

[01:59:26] xEmperorEmber Lol... I wish it was.

[01:59:39] xEmperorEmber I'm trying to figure out if I should just kill myself and be done with it.

[01:59:44] xEmperorEmber Put it to a vote?

[02:00:02] xEmperorEmber It's not.

[02:00:18] xEmperorEmber Wife leukemia, family gone, 20 year old. I'm 38, all true.

[02:00:31] xEmperorEmber Not a lie in the chat...

[02:00:40] xEmperorEmber Unfortunately.

[02:01:08] xEmperorEmber Shit, if you google this nick, you'll see my dumb teenage ass posting poetry from like 2003.

[02:01:19] xEmperorEmber I didn't even pick a random SN.

[02:01:45] xEmperorEmber So was my GF.

[02:01:46] xEmperorEmber FML

[02:01:53] xEmperorEmber She was 2.

[02:01:58] xEmperorEmber .. ahhhh fuck.

[02:02:02] xEmperorEmber Kill myself.

[02:02:06] xEmperorEmber That's the answer.

[02:02:08] xEmperorEmber Thanks guys.

[02:02:12] xEmperorEmber Been a pleasure.

[02:02:56] xEmperorEmber LMAO@Cheyney

[02:03:14] xEmperorEmber Patience is a virtue I lack, obviously.

[02:03:18] xEmperorEmber lol

[02:03:24] xEmperorEmber My life is a joke.

[02:03:42] xEmperorEmber CoolKevin, the most fucked up thing about all of it...

[02:03:46] xEmperorEmber She wanted sex. I didn't.

[02:03:55] xEmperorEmber I just wanted to hold someone to fall asleep.

[02:04:21] xEmperorEmber The first time we met in person, she came straight at me. Felt like rape.

[02:05:31] xEmperorEmber No, she came at me, in a parking lot, while we were eating grocery store sushi, she wrestled me to get my pants down. I fought, but I was afraid I was calling attention to the car. She won.

[02:05:37] xEmperorEmber That was just oral.

[02:05:56] xEmperorEmber But later, I got a flat on the way to work, and she offered to pay for the tire, and the tire took 24 hours to repair.

[02:05:59] xEmperorEmber So she got a hotel room.

[02:06:04] xEmperorEmber That's where she got me for real.

[02:06:19] xEmperorEmber She SWORE... since there was no condoms, there would be no sex.

[02:06:29] xEmperorEmber Ladies and Gentlemen... She is a liar.

[02:06:41] xEmperorEmber I am only human.

[02:06:45] xEmperorEmber LMFAO

[02:06:49] xEmperorEmber Thanks Sushi.

[02:08:08] xEmperorEmber Must be nice.

[02:08:22] xEmperorEmber My supervisor at work has put me in a room with no sharp objects.

[02:08:26] xEmperorEmber I'm a fucking mess.

[02:11:26] xEmperorEmber Okay, who wants pictures?

[02:11:33] xEmperorEmber To validate this reality?

[02:11:57] xEmperorEmber IDK how to send them here, but send on the emails and I'll send the pics.

[02:12:11] xEmperorEmber I just NEED some people to hear what is happening in my life and fucking stick around.

[02:13:07] xEmperorEmber I have a therapist, Sushi.

[02:13:11] xEmperorEmber She gave up.

[02:13:39] xEmperorEmber IDK how to make sure you guys are here again.

[02:13:47] xEmperorEmber This chatroom is random AF for me.

[02:13:57] xEmperorEmber You guys are all here, always>

[02:14:17] xEmperorEmber ?

[02:14:38] xEmperorEmber Yeah, I work... not sleep so much.

[02:15:22] xEmperorEmber I'm working on it, Kevin. Blood Pressure is 185/120.

[02:15:27] xEmperorEmber Consistently.

[02:15:40] xEmperorEmber That's stroke level.

[02:15:57] xEmperorEmber My pulse is 70.

[02:16:04] xEmperorEmber It is stroke level.

[02:16:17] xEmperorEmber Like.. My brain could have stroke any second.

[02:16:36] xEmperorEmber Never mind I can run 2 miles, and life 400 lbs.

[02:16:53] xEmperorEmber I'm fit... yep... but my body is giving out. I've been pissing blood for 2 months.

[02:17:00] xEmperorEmber The stress is about to do me in.

[02:17:03] xEmperorEmber *lift

[02:17:12] xEmperorEmber It is... it is bad.

[02:17:18] xEmperorEmber I did see a doctor.

[02:17:36] xEmperorEmber I have kidney damage, likely from trying to OD on my ex-wife's cancer meds.

[02:22:29] xEmperorEmber CoolKevin, She has been in remission since end of April. I took meds mid May.

[02:22:53] xEmperorEmber We havent spoken since beginning of July. I started dating College Student beginning of July.

[02:23:39] xEmperorEmber Yeah, all true.

[02:24:04] xEmperorEmber Yep.

[02:24:12] xEmperorEmber Maybe "hates" is a bit much.

[02:24:18] xEmperorEmber Leukemia m5b.

[02:24:59] xEmperorEmber She beat it. I mean, if it came back, IDK. Haven't spoken. I haven't heard from my daughter in 7 days now.

[02:25:05] xEmperorEmber Last she said, Mom was good.

[02:25:14] xEmperorEmber But, maybe Mom doesn't say the truth.

[02:25:16] xEmperorEmber IDK.

[02:25:41] xEmperorEmber 7 days ago she told me we can't talk anymore.

[02:26:11] xEmperorEmber Because Mom would find out and take all her stuff away, which sucks, because she is trying to stay in contact with friends while out of state staying with family.

[02:26:25] xEmperorEmber Yes, daughter knows about GF.

[02:26:37] xEmperorEmber I cleared it before entering the relationship.

[02:27:08] xEmperorEmber She is 16 - had she said, nah... I would have not gone for it. As it is, I rejected sex for over a month with this woman.

[02:27:17] xEmperorEmber With family, Kevin.

[02:27:53] xEmperorEmber lol.. no Coderain.

[02:27:57] xEmperorEmber Nice try.

[02:28:26] xEmperorEmber IDK anything about her. I messaged her tonight, for the first time since beginning of July because I'm drunk AF.

[02:28:32] xEmperorEmber Hence chatting with you guys.

[02:28:59] xEmperorEmber I can't remember the names, coderain, but I remember what they weren't, and they were not that.

[02:29:18] xEmperorEmber The bleeding is from extreme kidney stones.

[02:29:39] xEmperorEmber I also lost 100 lbs in about 1 1/2 months.

[02:29:44] xEmperorEmber from the stress and depression.

[02:29:56] xEmperorEmber I was about 300. I am now 210.

[02:30:20] xEmperorEmber I am 5 9"

[02:30:42] xEmperorEmber Yeah, let's just say I'm not very fat.

[02:30:43] xEmperorEmber lol

[02:31:02] xEmperorEmber I'm absurdly strong.

[02:31:27] xEmperorEmber I can pick this woman up with one arm and kinda do what I want.

[02:31:39] xEmperorEmber She is about 120-130?

[02:32:03] xEmperorEmber Yeah, I was a weight lifter... lol

[02:32:07] xEmperorEmber And scuba diver.

[02:32:12] xEmperorEmber If that counts for anything.

[02:32:46] xEmperorEmber Going to step out for a minute to hurt my lungs.

[02:32:51] xEmperorEmber I'll catch up when I get back.

[02:33:06] xEmperorEmber @sushi-chan is a fast typer.

[02:33:14] xEmperorEmber 70-90 wpms?

[02:33:39] xEmperorEmber That's disgusting sushi.

[02:33:48] xEmperorEmber I'm immediately put off.

[02:33:53] xEmperorEmber You will not be my lamp shade.

[02:34:01] xEmperorEmber Sorry.

[02:34:35] xEmperorEmber be back in a few.

[02:34:48] xEmperorEmber Also, thanks guys, for the chat - it seriously does help sooth me, atm.

[02:34:56] xEmperorEmber soothe..

[02:35:07] xEmperorEmber be back in a bit.

[02:35:34] xEmperorEmber Real quick, before I go - if I come back here, you guys will be here - eventually?

[02:35:40] xEmperorEmber like.. this is a legit chat?

[02:36:01] xEmperorEmber Nice. Thanks coderain.

[02:36:20] xEmperorEmber I guess I'll be a regular. I talk a lot - feel free to tell me to stfu.

[02:37:51] xEmperorEmber Going to try calling her.

[02:38:02] xEmperorEmber If I don't show back up, it's because it was successful.

[02:45:06] xEmperorEmber Okay, on the phone with her. FML.

[02:45:33] xEmperorEmber My daughter is a lesbian... lol.

[02:45:44] xEmperorEmber I certify, being gay is a-o-k.

[02:46:19] xEmperorEmber @sushi-chan, your credentials are sus.

[02:46:26] xEmperorEmber To be discussed at a later date.

[02:47:05] xEmperorEmber An asian who loves other asians? Never met one.

[02:47:09] xEmperorEmber js

[02:47:32] xEmperorEmber OH.. well, then. That explains it.

[02:48:27] xEmperorEmber I'm not racist. Can't be. My 20 year old GF is black, so...

[02:48:31] xEmperorEmber jk jk jk

[02:48:37] xEmperorEmber I mean, she is, but yk what I mean.

[02:49:02] xEmperorEmber Just gonna say FML again and see myself out.

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